Last night I attended my first funeral for a child. One of my high school friends lost her 4 month old baby girl to SIDS - she went down for a nap on Wednesday August 17th and never woke up.
The memorial service was very saddening...you know the kind of service where they say "it was her time to go" and preach about how you shouldn't grieve and mourn the loss - well, that's not very comforting to parents who barely got the chance to get to know and love their little one. I can't imagine the pain that the family is going through right now - I was overcome with emotion last night as the video images of their little girl played on the screen...just thinking about losing a child is too painful.
After getting home from the service last night, my husband called to tell me that he would be going "out there" today. As if I wasn't already emotionally drained...he said it was only going to be for a few hours, but he was definitely nervous - after all, he wasn't really expecting to have to go on any sort of 'missions' at all and now the third day he's there he's going out...he'll be fine, I'm sure, but I can't help but be nervous for him. At least he gets to call often so I know how things are going on a regular basis.
On a happier note, tomorrow is Kaia's birthday party - she's so excited about her Backyardigans cakes! She's got some great presents coming her way, too! My little girl is four!